"It does matter. I'm, mm, I'm trashed right now." He lays back down. They still have seven hours or so before they have to meet with Rose and Hal. Hopefully he can sober up some by then. "This is why I don't drink. I get all emotional."

And he really isn't the sort of person who needs to feel emotions more keenly than he already does.

"I want what you and Ian have and I'm never going to get that, and then tonight there was like forty minutes where I was like okay, maybe I could someday, but then I was too drunk and I had to get out of there." His voice feels like slush in his mouth.